RIP34.

the los angeles angel of anahiem pitcher Nick Adenhart died on April 9, 09. I didnt really care cause there not the team i follow. but the angels clinched a playoff spot yesterday. So they were showing all the highlights off all the team members pouring champayne on each other. & they held up his jersy & poured mad champayne on it & they went out to the feild where his face in like implanted on the wall & jus kept chanting his name. I was going to cry :/ thats mad sad ! im so happy they're in the playoffs. & i really hope they win the world series just for nick ! <3



He died in a BAD car accindent along w/ 2 other people. This is his car :/


Showing LOVE & HONOR to him .

REST EAZY NICK ADENHART<3 #34.

vanessa.

so theres this really annoying white bitch in my spanish class. like when i say annoying i mean annoying. like shes talks about her gages all damn day. she raises her hand to talk in spanish then takes like 10 min to think about what she wants to say then has a odee hard problem saying it. like shut upp! she talks about her mom being odee organic so she cant even candy or any of the sort. but legit everyday sits in class eating candy like WTF. she talks about her mom being so strict like EVERYDAY! omg NO ONE CARESSSS! shes just so damn annoying. so today we were talking about problems/advice. so i wrote that my problem was i hate spanish class because i cant read or write in spanish. so the teachers like what would you guys give as advice. so this butt bitch was like ' switch out ' & clearly in my problem i said i cant switch out because i need this class to graduate & plus theres no other teacher doing spanish 3 . so then the teachers like she needs this class to graduate. so shes like " switch into ms.mendes " & im liek " thats spanish too & i obviously already passed that class " so shes like "so what switch into it anyway " like i legit wanted to get up & punch her ugly ass in the face . like urghhh! i need to go back to counsleing seriously.


-- oh & just so you no i typed all this without lookinq at the keyboard. haah [: yes im gassed <3

iNEED $$$.

i need like a million dollars to satisfy my needs.
i keep telling my self im not buyin anymore kicks for a while cause i have enough!
but guess what davida just did ? went & bought some more kicks.
but they were a must need. some beef & brocolli's timbs.
they're in everyone closets- not that cause eveyrone has them i need them.
but they match the north face jacket/sweater im getting.
after next week i will be BROKE. as in like 8$ in my bank account.
im going to start working @ WENDYS on my 16th bDAY.
which is november 9th. haha. im kinda scared to be getting 300+ every two weeks.
imma put 120$ away in the bank so i can have money for my car + driving school.
im growing up to fast; im scared =/!

browsing.

so ive been looking at random ass peoples blogs. which i LOVE doing; cause it just shows you how other people live from all across the u.s. well alot of people were blogging about fashion week. & i LOVE these pieces!

i love this outfit. the poofed skirt & jean sweater + gold boot the just work so good together [:

i dont like the top of this outfit but the skirt & so beautiful! iLOVE ittt <3

i dont no what this is. im guessing a bathing suit but i love it! i love the flinstone theme & just the way it lookss ! my favv !

i dont like this outfit on this chick. but the one behind her i love. the polka dots are fab & once again the dress is poofy which makes it even better. & strapless. a MUST HAVE.

i love this dress cause of the poof & the heart on her chest.

i dont even no what this is but this is beautiful <3>

=(

* im feeling so fkcn depressed right now. like i legit HATE everyone. i was good all up into like 2 hrs ago ? like idk whats good with me! im sooo sad. not on no suicidal shit.
- i did horrible in chemistry class today. i dont understand the material. i just cheat off my friend leslie :(
- i've basically given up on spanish class. i cant fucking read spanish; so how the fuck am i suppose to do the work ?
- my friend tianna's daughters birthday party was today. so she keeps telling me all week she'll come pick me up to go. so i tell her like you dont have to pick me up ill just go with you home & help you decorate for the party. so shes like okay. & then she leaves me! WTF. i had to walk home. so then she was still suppose to pick me up & then she calls jaiy saying she cant come pick us up & i knew that was going to happen cause she was telling everyone that she was gunna pick em up. even though the party started @ 4 & we get outta school @ 2 lol. whatevvv niggga im so overr liersss >:(
- my friend jaiy started smoking cigerrettes. my brother was suppose to stop smoking budd but still contiunues to smoke. my ex bff smokes budd now & thinks its the cutest thing in the world. i no i cant change people but still i dont understand why people smoke. URGH! it makes no sencee!!!.
- the red sox are losing :(
- & im home alone. my brother went w his nigga. & my mom is at work ! :(
- theres fucking shoot outs behind my house. since plumley started beef with kilby they find it so cute to start shootouts. this is about the second one since the summer & i dont understand y niggas got to shoot. like just fight!! & there's mad little kids always playing outside & what if they get shot?

im seriously so fkcn depressed. & i have NO ONE to talk to. my bestfriend yoge is the only person i can really really open up to. but she lives in puerto rico & since i have no cell phone she has to call me . & she hasnt in a couple days :( so im just sitting here w all my thoughts :(

i seriously want to break down & cry ! but im stronger then this.

my room.

needs a makeover :/

allll my friends & families pictures + my obssesion w dustin pedroia!

posters, couple more pictures & magazine pics of carmelo anthony + hov.

my closet! w my kicks + clothes.

winnie the pooh section of the room [:

* i was sick & i didnt want him to get sick thats why he's wearing a mask (:

iDONT know;

*iLOVE attention; iLOVE that everyone knows me. iLOVE saying hi to everyone in the hall! iLOVE being around boys. iLOVE being athletic because boys pay attention to me. iLOVE play fighting with boys ! idk. but i love boys <3.

-- theres some freshman kid bow-b. like i like him; but at the same time i dont. he look really gooooood. but has a girlfriend. but still fkcs with chicks on the side. i see him everyday & chill w him through friends but legit dont say one word to him. & im not even that type of girl. if i like you imma tell you! im NEVER shy. but w him its diffrent. idk :/

-- & iLOVE all my boy bestfriends. cause i love boys. but i love just being friends <3 you feel me ? idk. but i no what im talking about.

i want just one blonde streak in the side of my left head [:
i think it would look cute.
but i dont want to bleach my hair ! ;/

the north face.

so i have the money to buy this sweat shirt; but i need to save up other money for a winter jacket. i want a cute one for like 80$ or cheaper if i dont get a north face jacket.

http://www.eastbay.com/product/model:129851/sku:5086286/The%20North%20Face%20Caledonia%20Full%20Zip%20Hoodie%20-%20Women%27s?supercat=home&cm=GLOBAL%20SEARCH%3A%20KEYWORD%20SEARCH

winter jackets!

so i need a new winter jacket this year. i always buy ugly ass coats; so this yr i want a cute one (: perferably the north face jacket. so ive been online looking & the one i like is $200. which to me ISNT alot of money. like c'mon north face is very expensive so $200 isnt that serious; but to my mom it is. like WTF! i have 85$ & by like late november ill have close to 200$. but if my mom throw's 50$ it would be perfect & plus my birthday is in november & that can be my birthday present! but she refuses to let me buy a 200$ jacket. like OMG :/ i cant wait to get a job!

" gospel of wealth "

so i was in history class yesturday. we were talking about someshit i cant member; but then he talked about this dude who's religion was " gospel of wealth " & coach said he worshiped money. like thats his religion; so illll! right?! so i come home & tellin my mom & brother i changed my religion to " gospel of wealth " so a couple hrs later im actually doing my homework & READ the definition of that shit; it means ' you should get alot of money; but then give it away ' FUCKKK THATTT! i had to inform my maa & bro that i switched back to christianity [: i<3GOD!

classes.

--so i like pretty much all my classes besides my spanish class. like i CANT write in spanish so i hate it! ;/ but i need that class to graduate. why cant they have a class to teach you english ? lol. like deadass i would take it - cause why do latino's get to take a class they already no. so i wanna take a class that teachs english [:
--i switched out of my chemistry honors class; i switched into a regular chem class. basically my chem hon. teacher wasnt teaching me NOTHING! like seriously she gave us a test last friday & i anwsered TWO questions. like she tryed to explain what was on the test but it didnt help. like the notes she gives us SUCK! like she gets them out the book. but the test isnt from the book so its not asking us questions we have notes about so how am i suppose to study ? FEEL ME!? so i switched into mrs.holmes chemistry class. i had her freshman yr for biology & i LOVE the way she teaches, gives notes, & work! so im so much happier; & maybe a little happier because i have alot of friends in that class (:
-- i also switched out of my study into a geometry class. i needed it since i failed that class last yr. i hated the teacher i have! because last yr she was a bitch. but this yr shes mad cool; plus i dont give her no shit- i dont talk. because theres NO one to talk to & plus that class is all sophmores. so yeah! i feel like her work is mad eazy so im deff not failing again.

i just need to keep myself motivated & concentrate on getting good grades!.

. . . now im going to finish up some chemistry homework [:

c.r.e.a.m

it seems like money comes & goes; as soon as i get it its gone.
i love having my own money- just being able to get up & get what i need & want.
i love not having to ask my mother for money.
i did everything i had to do yesturday. i walked downtown to buy some shampoo & glue remover for my tracks.
i went to the post office & had to pay to ship my camera out & payed for the box.
after i was broke. & i HATED it. but it still felt good to just go out & do the things i needed to do.
.. i went to AJ WRIGHTS. which i HATE. probably cause everyone shops there & the store is just mad disorganized. but i seen these cute ass jeans. they were a MUST get. & they actually fit (: yes i fit in a size 7/8 wooohoo. then i seen this regular black hoodie! & i asked my mom to buy it for me & she said YES [: at first shes like no you have your bank card. but then she said yes. as much as i love spending my money. i love spending hers more !

lost ones.

so lost ones from jay-z is my favorite song (: i love everything that he says in it.

i heard motherfkc's saying they made hov.
made hov say : " okay so make anotha hov "

... " lose one; let go to get one "

he's basically talking about his once partner Damon Dash; right from the start he says " this aint a diss song its a real song "
then he starts to talk about Beyonce. since shes younger then him shes worried about her job doing what she gots to do; but he understands that- because if he was still young then he would do the same thing.

my fav quote
"but time dont go back; it goes foward.
cant run from the pain go towards it "

september eleventh.

i cant believe its been 8 years. i still remember the day terrorists attacked! i was in third grade & i looked towards the door & my teachers had her hand on her chest & the computer teacher was talking. i didnt pay much mind to it ; but at the end of the day the principal announced on the intercom that planes have been crashed in ny. i wasnt really scared- i was young so i probably didnt even care. but i no after all of that i was kind of scared. looking into my window i thought planes were going to crash! :(

REST EAZY; to all who died.
STAY UP; to all the people who lost someone.

fredericks of hollywood.

so this magazine was sent to my house! & i did not no fredericks sold anything but langere or however you spell it. i just wish i had places to actually wear this shit to! cause i would buy a couple. there hella cute & hella cheap. only 59$ for a dress [: these are some of my faves. . .

cookout [:

so yesturday was robs familys laboor day cookout; it wasnt really a cook out but we ate outside but all the food was cooked inside (: there was hella food & it was hella gooooddd ! omg. i feel like i gained a million pounds. it was really fun. besides his great-grandma almost dieing :( & the ambulance had to come. but shes alright. i had bonding time w my lil sis kai! we watched parent trap together after everyone left home lol. & my brother rob is just a HUGE pothead. i did not no he smoked as much as he did; when he picked me up he was fishbowling the car. we got to his house & 20 min l8rs he rolled a FAT ass L. then like 2 hrs later he was smoking again like DAMN niggga. haha. & me + his lil cousin had matching 6 rings. but i didnt get a pic : but all in all the days was GREAT !

hall of fame six rings (:

so a few posts back i was saying i want the hall of fame six rings & one's. & they came out on sat the 5th. only they dont have the 1's in kid sizes. & my dude from expressions hooked me with the six rings EARLY RELEASE! so you no i was rocking em before everyone else gets them on saturday !

only i wasnt the only one who got them early. malango & deondre had them to. but atleast there boys so i wasnt mad at all & plus there my dudesss.

& day TWO;

i dont know why; but I LOVE SCHOOL. like my classes are pretty cool. besides spanish; like me being black i understand spanish ALOT ALOT- but my teacher speaks non stop spanish, like theres 2 white girls & 2 asnz & i no they do not no wtf she be saying lmao. but besides that class i really like it -- i dont have any classes with any of my close close friends; so im mad quiet. which is a HUGEE diffrence from the past two yrs. the only class i talk in is my study & thats when you CANT talk; lol. i was thinking about dropping it to get a geometry class. but i can just do my homework in study so im probably going to take geometry 2nd semester 3/4. i love that i have no friends in my classes ; i just focus on my work :) i feel like this yr is just going to be a GREAT yr. real TALK! & bus rides are jus to fkcn illll ! I LOVE MY BUS. hopefully it stays the way it is once they hand out bus passes.

bus 74 nigggaaaa.

first day of school.

so i remember being really sad when the seniors left last yr; i kept thinking north is going to be so wack. like really wack. plus all the now seniors were mostly going to csc. but today wasnt that bad. i've relized i dont need alot of people around me to make school good. as long as i got my girls shai,jaiy,hail,jess&dez then im good; im glad i have all honors classes because its going to challenge me to do good! today was a little bit boring only because its the first day & there just telling you the rules- like if im not in 11th grade & havent done this 12 times before but whatever. i have third lunch & i sit with my friends nai , hail & dez; which im happy cause last yr i had 1st lunch which is by far the wackest lunch ever!! & theres this sexy ass freshman. yeah i no im a junior but fkc it; the nigga look good. hes not to fly you can tell her wore his white ups before today but hey who cares- & hes on my bus. so im jus sittin on the bus waiting to go home & he comes on. so i say to my friend jaiy " omg look @ him he look mad good " so my friend tati is like who you talking about im like that nigga with the blue & she calls him to the back of the bus. & obviously he couldve sat with her because there was a spot opened but he decided to sit with me; he says " can i sit here " i say " yeah " OMG. he jus loook so good. but i was being mad loud & crazy. & hes jus mad mellow. but hey they say oppisites attract. & theres this other kid taylor & omg hes jus the sexiest white boy ever. & i havent seen him all summer so i was happy to seee him today! (: when i seen him i was jus like blurted out " omg he look SO damn good " ahah ! well & all the first day was a SUCESSS! & theres really no drama. hopefully it stays that way.