!@#$%.

its hard to say goodbye, knowing they're not coming home with you
:'(

i always see the tears fill your eyes, yet they never drop.
i always see you stare off into space; thinking alot, yet you never speak.
you cant blame yourself for others mistakes. you try hard to set a good example.
you hovered, then let go & clearly he wasnt ready.
but you did the best you can.
your the greatest mother in the world.

so i was at barnes & nobles today. reading a really good book, well so far its good.
its called LIAR. im not going to say the whole book; but as you can guess its about some bitch that lies about alot of things.
she says she doesnt want attention brought to her so she wont lie, yet turns around & tell the people with the biggest mouths in her school shes a hermaphadite! LMFAO.
oh goodness. i didnt finish it; but tomorrow i will <3

is it just me or do other people find it weird that you can be bestfirends with a person & then walk by them sometime later & dont even give them a half smile ?
i think about all the "supposed" bestfriends i ever had or even people i was really close with & just walk by them when i see them. its just so weird i use to write on your agenda davida & so&so BESTfriends forever & blah blah blah. but i dont even care for you now. idk; i dont really care losing friends; but this just made me think how i walk by people so much & we use to be mad close.

baby dont go.

* its okay to lose your pirde over someone you love;
but dont lose someone over your pride
-- LOSO.

as much as i can ask these questions, it doesn't matter. Eveyone wishes there was a time machine that exists. that we can have our own little genie, who grants us 3 wishes & erases our mistakes. We all wish we could have a remote, like a Click-like life, and we can rewind the best memories of our lives, fast foward all the heartbreaks and lonliness we'd end up feeling, pause whenever we're faced with a tough situation, and just stop the tape completely when we don't wanna deal with anything anymore.

-- DARLANNE.

* so true; countless times i think to myself; urgh why did i do that. i need to rewind the clock & change the way i acted- or something i said;;

all i can live by is jay-z quote.
"time dont go back it goes forward; dont run from the pain go towards it"

the biggest disappointment . . .

why the hell would you go do that?
you just love to live the fast life ?
you lost your job & now you need to go rob people & get arrested for it ?
now im left to anwser all the questions-- & i really dont want to.
i have to live under your name & people looking at me like im going to do the same shit.
but guess what, i have more brains then you ever had;
i hope you rot in jail.
i hate you & i mean that.

STFU;

its time people just need to grow the fuck up; on some real shit. it gets me so mad when people constantly update there status via twitter,myspace, or facebook; about some silly nonsense drama. saying "i cant wait to fuck that bitch up" or "i love how she hates on me; i dont give a fuck" its kinda like. SHUTup; no one cares about your drama && you dont need to update your status every second about someone you dont like or dont like you. or how much you dont care about drama & people hate on you. then why update your status so much ? its just like get over it. or when pregnant girls stay saying "if i wasnt prego i would fuck that bitch up" its like just shut up; cause before you were pregnant you didnt do shit! or "as soon as im not pregnant imma fuck this bitch up" & its like; GROWup; you have a kid now. show people your more mature then there little kid ass. cause people look more stupid then ever when they stay talking shit & the person they talkin about ignores them. cause it looks like there the little kid & your mature about the situation. idk; its easy to pass judgement on other peoples faults. but when i look at people doing/saying this bull; it makes me think how stupid i look always talking shit to girls! you know? it just makes me grow up (: so thnk you silly bitches!

happy birthday vi$ki (:

NOVEMBER 9th <3

birthday outfitt (:

-- i got alot of complements saying i look so pretty <3
i deffintly agreee ! LOL.
im finally sixteeen! gotta study the permit book & apply @ mcDonalds.
hopefully i get the job <3

THNKS, for bDAy wishes (:
& nai,bri,hail&rizz+ rest of table for singing happy bDAyy!

reality shows (:

my favoritee aree . . .
little people big world [TLC)
dallas divas & daughters (STYLE]
cake boss (TLC]
the real world (MTV]

all those love shows i hate! cause they're all fake as helllll!
i cant wait to watch styl'd it preimiered last sunday- but i was KNOCKED; so gotta watch it this week <3
& its what i wanna do when i get older. STYLE BITCHESSS <3